Saturday, February 20, 2010

Time to leave

Well, today is the time to leave the apartment i am staying in which has been provided to me by Shalby Hospitals.I came here on the 1st of August, and have spent six and half months here. I loved it, i could live independently, got my airtel internet connection here, ordered the food i liked and had my house leaned by the Hospital Janitor.I also saw some good and tumultuous moments in this place. The good news of the job offer was also received here.

Stayatriveni Apartments, i will miss u a lot. Thanks for everything , you certainly were an auspicious place.

Sunday, February 14, 2010

A Decade of Lonliness


The Year 2000, that was the year i left home for my Higher Studies. Tragic events and Incidents took place and i hardly came home. I chose to remain single. People say that loneliness is one of the greatest aphrodisiac one can ever be addicted to. I will agree with that. However in that last 10 years i have undergone a tremendous personality change. There are pro's and con's of everything. I will mention the effects of loneliness.

I have become so addicted to stay lonely that i can't share my place with anyone, a room mate would be an encroach er who will disturb my personal place.

I grew apart from the Indian Society.Marriages, Social Gatherings and all such events make no difference to me.

Festivals have come and gone, i stooped feeling the excitement i used to feel during my childhood.Even my own birthday does not bother me, it is just another day for me.

I hate going to public places, just can't stand the crowd.

I have lost all emotions, have no feelings anymore. I don't know how, but it happened, so much that today i can't even understand other people's feeling.

Loneliness has made me develop a phlegmatic stoical antipathy towards the Indian Society, so much that i hate it and more is the hatred for the Institution of marriage.I don't understand why do people get married.

Solitary Existence has become a part of my life.

I find it difficult to relate to any other person on an individual level.

There is some form of isolation felt even in crowds.

I am very fearful of getting into any relationship for the fear of being rejected, abandoned and disillusioned.

However i found new hobbies, i love to read, watch movies, go to swim or exercise.I can do a lot on my personality development. Also i can concentrate much better on my career.

Tuesday, February 9, 2010

Women I Admire-Part 2


That's Sandhya Mridul, the smart Alec next door.She has a way of carrying herself, extremely confident and talented she radiates intellect.
I just can't stop admiring her

Monday, January 25, 2010


My time is coming and it is coming soon.I am praying that everything goes well. I will miss the place, the people and the bonds that i have made with people.

I will miss everything but what to do, all good people have left and now its my time to go, i cant work here anymore, the toxicity is increasing day by day and things are turning from bad to worse.

Final preparations are on the way, hope the end is smooth.

Monday, January 18, 2010

Some Bitter Lesson that I have Learnt with Time

I have learn t an important lesson today and that is I should always intermingle with people of my own class,never to stoop down my level. It may lead to isolation but at the end of the day people don't hurt you.

I have made a firm decision today that i will never share any information on my personal life with anyone, come what so may ever and i have decided to keep things private. I have paid the price of being over friendly with people.

I have stopped keeping faith in people and i swear by God that from now on nothing personal will be disclosed or shared.

Friday, January 1, 2010


The day started as a major shocker, Wg Comm Arun Kaul Sir  resigned and it was his last day, the Organization people were shocked, it was a sad day, a samaritan, saint, prophet and messiah was leaving.What could i say??
I knew that it was coming. I spoke to sir and showed him the new assignment offer that, he went through it carefully and told me to take it up.He blessed me and told me to be in touch. I will surely miss you sir.

Later i went to the House of Bhagwandas, had a couple of drinks with the Shalby friends and go t high, came back home , got dressed and went to the Hospital for my duty, had a small party with the Emergency staff.And that was it, i spent the day recollecting the events of 2009.